Summer Playlist

Author’s note: This was written last Saturday, before the Case of the Missing Suitcase. It was never posted because I hadn’t had the chance to proofread it before everything happened. So here it is, a week later.

Working backwards, here’s the itinerary from Summer 2022.

Down south (August 9-10). Okay, techically, that’s in the future, as in, we leave tomorrow. Kevin and I will drive Tatum to her new boarding school to start 10th grade. This is a mixed blessing, to say the least. We’re relieved to find a good school with supports in a beautiful place, but we’re sad to think of Tatum not being at home.

Rehoboth Beach, Delaware (August). I haven’t been inside 122 Newcastle Street, which runs perpendicular to King Charles Avenue–which I like saying because it reminds me that we are in Maryland, as in the land of Henriette Marie, or Queen Mary, queen of England, Scotland, and Ireland–since I had bangs as curled as the queen’s, and braces to boot. Actually, I may have been more into flannel and flip flops the last time I was in Rehoboth, but it’s been awhile. I think that’s the first place I ever got tipsy. I was given champagne at Thanksgiving dinner when I was about 14, and when I stood up to clear the table, the room rearranged itself a bit too.

How funny to be there when my children are about the same age! It is great being parents of children old enough to hang out on the beach by themselves, walk the boardwalk by themselves, and walk home by themselves. They loved it. Highlights included buying matching sweatshirts (Clara and her friend Mary), riding the rides at Funland (Finn), sleeping on the front porch (Dad), throwing a football with Finn on the beach (Kevin), playing Apples to Apples (Heather), and sunrise walks on the beach (Auntie Blitz). We took the kids to the water slides, ate at Grottos pizza on the boardwalk, found a fun British fish’n’chips place, and bought 6.5 pounds of fudge (for real). It was all fantastic. I can’t forget to highlight that Kevin was not stung by a jellyfish but “attacked by a Portugese man’o’war.” And he got a splinter in his heel that I shouldn’t have enjoyed as much as I did.

Nashville, Tennesse (July). On the long road trip home from Arkansas, I made the family detour through Nashville, and to a one, they are all so glad I did. Even Kevin liked it because he found “the best food [he] ate on this trip” at Martin’s BBQ joint, right behind Chili’s on West End, where I waited tables for a good solid year. Vanderbilt is a beautiful campus, even at night, and it was fun showing the family where I used to work at Peabody College as a research assistant. And downtown Nashville is a hoot, quite literally; one amazing band after another competes for an audience of well-heeled and rhinestone-studded listeners alike from open bars. Clara and Finn goggled at party buses filled with dancing guests that glided down Broadway blaring music. Turning left onto 2nd Avenue brought a noise reprieve, pretty twinkling lights, and foodie restaurants between murals. Then we crossed the Cumberland with its steamboats and lit up bridge and coasted back into the dark night of Route 40 through the Bible belt toward Knoxville. Lots of memories flooded my way along that route that I drove so many times.

Mountain View, Arkansas (July). It’s the folk music capital of America, did you know that? We had a cabin overlooking a creek and a bunch of trees, set back aways and remote enough to set off some firecrackers on a bridge (being mindful of the burn ban; every day was over 100 degrees). My favorite memory is sitting in the Pickin’ Park at dusk with a storm brewing, listening to some banjo, guitar and vocals. Older people pulled up their chairs and drinks and gossiped and tapped feet. Brooks and I both thought that was awesome. Other highlights included Kevin and I completing a level 3 ropes course and a first zip line for Brooks; swimming in some clear creeks and putting our feet in the sparkling splash of a small waterfall; and jiving to chopsticks with Clarabelle on the most out of tune piano you ever did hear.

Little Rock, Arkansas (July). I have never thought much about going to Little Rock, to be honest, but it was a super visit. Not least of which, because we got to hang out with Brooks, who radiates good energy, kindness and fun. Now, his taste in movies might skew off-color for 13-year-olds, but his sense of humor never fails him, especially when it comes to ribbing Kevin. We visited two excellent museums, one an art and history museum that had an outstanding Native American gallery, and the other the Central High School museum where we got to learn more about the Little Rock Nine and our civil rights struggles. We found some good-vibe restaurants and debated why there is a dearth of workers right now. Brooks is doing great but wants to hightail it back to the Carolinas and Pres as soon as work allows.

Fontana Village, North Carolina (July). What a treat it was to arrive at the foot of the valley of the Smokies and hear ghost stories while eating s’mores by the bonfire. Tatum got to drive for the first time—a boat—and we got to catch up with the Ross and Baughn families. We hiked, swam, tubed, played games, watched Harry Potter movies, and got some history lessons. We also ate great food. My kind of vacation.

Deep Creek, Maryland (July Fourth). It’s not summer until Deep Creek. The kids all feel strongly about this. The traditional Fourth of July reunion has become a Thing that the kids wouldn’t miss if they could help it. Required components include: lazy lake days, Honi Honis, a meal cooked by Uncle Patrick, tubing and possibly skiing, the Creamery, meals on the back porch at the cottage, sleeping in the loft at the big house, a movie theater movie, and games. A favorite of this year’s Fourth was watching fireworks from the dock. Beautiful, peaceful, and good music to boot. There were also history outings and Blitz created another hilarious trivia game. Huge thanks to Mary Ellen and Dad for making this tradition possible year after year.

Twin Creeks Camp, Hot Springs, West Virginia (June). Clara spent two weeks with Lana at sleepaway camp this summer, and it was a huge hit. I can’t say much about it because Clara has wisely kept most of the stories to herself. I do know she won several tennis matches, played team games that involved following random people around for a full minute and hitting people with noodles and whipped cream. There were bonfires, lake swims, and bunk beds. Most importantly, there were no parents.

Somewhere west of Salt Lake City, Utah (June). Tatum participated in a program in Utah in June and did great there. She was there for three weeks. I can’t say she loved it, but she did get to do some rock climbing, art, and guitar playing. By all accounts, she was a great addition to the program, successful in everything she did, and a leader on her team. And that was the beginning of the many summer travels of 2022.

Catching this Messy Ball of Yarn

It’s been a long time since I’ve written regularly or at all, actually. There are so many reasons to avoid writing about life: it’s difficult to find the minutes between deciphering regression results, washing sheets, and serving as social secretary and chauffeur; it’s, um, awkward to write about people aged 13-15 who have zero interest in serving as my entertainment system, at least publicly; and my life usually feels like a ball of yarn of various delightful and bold colors that has mysteriously gotten tangled up in terrible knots, yakked on by the cat, thrown into the washing machine, tossed through the dryer with jumping jacks, and poked by safety pins. Unclosed safety pins.

It started out so pretty and potentially useful.

Since I can’t go backwards and fill you in on the best and worst parts of the past few months thoroughly, I’ll just present updates from the past few weeks. School is out! That used to be unequivocally great and now it’s unclear whether it falls in the “yay!” or the “boooo” column. We’ll put that one in the middle. Same with Tatum going to a program in Utah in early June, it was both. Clara went to camp in West Virginia for two weeks, loved it according to her letters, and is getting picked up today. Marley finished her first year at UMD and started her illustrious summer career at Uncle Julio’s.

Finn started building a tree house and he met his idol, Coach Nick Woodard, who came to our house to meet Finn!

We’ve had visitors: Mom and Doug, Hugh, Noelle and Mica, the Biggars in Bethesda. Hooray on all fronts. I also got to see my friend Elaine and we are scheming for a yoga/spa week in India and a family safari next summer. I’m excited about our road trips this summer, but those two ideas sound kind of amazing.

With the World Bank fiscal year wrapped yesterday, I finished my work and have a summer break now, and more importantly, Kevin is home for the summer too. Yesterday presented a classic day for us: Rob dropped me off at Dulles Airport at 9.30 am (heading to Sally Lake City) and picked Kevin up at 10.00 am (arriving from Delhi). We were almost in enough proximity to exchange a Delhi sandwich (please tell me you smiled at that) or a box of mangoes.

Kevin was sweating his entire 30-hour trip between Delhi and DC because his housekeeper Mary insisted on giving him a box of mangoes to bring to us, which is sweet but carries a $12,000 fine as undeclared produce, which would be bitter indeed—and would lead to some seriously salty language from Kevin and would leave us all with a sour taste in our mouths.

I also turned 50 in the last few weeks. I could aim to do 50 minutes of exercise a day—ha ha, I mean, a week—or try 50 new restaurants/museums/experiences, or read 50 books this year. But perhaps instead I will aim to plan just two things, a trip with my mom, who has been to remote parts of the Sahel, China and Southern France, and a trip with my dad, whose remote travels are too extensive to mention, if we can get him to come to India next summer in spite of the heat.

Maybe in these journeys, I will untangle some of the threads of my messy ball of yarn or at least add to its colors.

Thankful in Indiana

This is overdue, but starting the holiday season began with our first trip to Seymour in two years. Here are our highlights from the trip, which concluded with a sprinter spontaneous stopover in DCL for a snowy dinner with Dad and Mary Ellen at Uno. I was also thankful to have our new, big-enough car for six people, a dog and luggage.

Finn – going to the Mexican restaurant and playing ping pong and swimming and drone and giving a big bone to Bali.

Clara – playing ping ping and meeting Maisy the dog and trying cotton candy Bang and going swimming.

Tatum – playing the money game and watching The Hangover and going swimming.

Marley – swimming and going around shopping at boutiques in Fountain Square and Thanksgiving dinner.

Kevin- basketball and breakfast bar at the hotel and joking around with family.

Heather – talking with the family in the kitchen and watching swimming and talking to Brooks and having sleepovers with the girls. Hearing Kathy whistle to call Marley.

Monday: My Day by the Numbers

6 drop offs/pick ups for school

3 hours engaged in said school runs

1 car dead

2 ubers ordered

6 hours waiting in the Glen Echo parking lot for the car to be revived

1 towtruck called

2 minutes needed to tow the car up the hill and across the street to the service station

6,000 number of dollars needed for the part to repair the engine for said car

0 hours worked for pay

3 Covid tests completed for three children

1 docter’s appointment attended and derobed for

0 docter’s appointments completed…rerobed and departed (see item 1 above)

20 minutes nap dreamed of

0 minutes nap had

12 text messages with 9th grader about impromptu requested plans

1 apple cider donut consumed to deal with stress of said requests

7 homework assignments assigned to Finn

0 homework assignments assigned to Clara or Tatum

Author’s note: This is from Monday a couple of weeks ago. The lag is a decent representation of my inability to keep up with la vie quotidienne. Our beloved car broke for good that day. Sometime maybe I’ll write an ode to that car. I loved it, probably because I spent an exceptional amount of time in it…I currently spend 3 hours a weekday driving. Isn’t that absurd? I could drive to Deep Creek in that much time, and have time to stop at Hill Top on the way.

Real author’s note: This entry was written in honor of Stan Paul. Writing a blog is kind of like spitting into the wind. One never knows if it ever lands, anywhere, at any time, and more likely, it will not land but will come back with a splat on my face because I wrote something embarrassing, if not to me, then definitely to one of my three pigs. However, one time, about ten years ago, I wrote a post that landed. I wrote “My Day by the Numbers” when my children were still in diapers (the number of diapers changed that day was high). Stan told me it made him laugh (in my mind, he “laughed and laughed,” but that might be hyperbole). I never forgot that. It made me so happy to know that my life is as absurd as I think it is. Stan passed away in June. Next I will share some reflections on Stan that I wrote this summer. This too is past due, but I stick by the mantra that late is better than never, and you can’t have a nice figure and nice kids at the same time. Oh wait, that’s a different post.

Aptos, The People

Right near Santa Cruz is a long stretch of beach in a curved moon bay. It is practically our very own, both by tradition (Mom and Doug have rented the house many times these past few years, even leaving beach towels behind to hold our place) and by dearth of visitors. We can sit on the second story balcony with our feet up, away from sun and wind, and watch the kids roll in the sand or have nighttime dance parties in front of the surf from the comfort of a chaise lounge, with a grill and a glass of champagne at the ready.

Aptos means “the people” in the Oloni language on the first inhabitants. That’s funny, because I thought it must mean “baby shark nursery,” or “place of feasting for teenage sharks,” which also describes our stretch of shore. Anyway, here are highlights of our visit from my people.

Finn: With Uncle Hugh, throwing the ball at each other’s sand castles on the beach, going surfing, and making the horror movie. And definitely Bridget’s birthday.

Marley: Walking to get lunch with Bridget, surfing, and the whole house. Oh, and singing on the beach at night and making the movie.

Justine: Surfing, being at the house and eating food. I just liked everything equally. Seeing the Santa Cruz campus. Seeing Uncle Paul.

Hugh: Hanging out at Cowell beach, seeing Paul, showing the campus to the kids, hearing Ron play guitar. Doing the sand castles with Finn.

Mom/Joanna: Escaping from Finn burying my feet, watching Paul teach the kids to surf, Ron’s spaghetti dinner, everyone hanging around the table telling stories and jokes.

Heather: hearing Hugh tell Poland and other travel stories about Dad/Poppy, seeing the kids at dinner having so much fun together and hearing Clara laugh, talking with Bridget at sunset on the beach, hearing the kids’ excitement about making their movie, early morning coffee chat with Rob and Paul, seeing Tatum happy in our zoom session.

Rob: The fondue party for Bridget’s birthday, the surfing and beach day (while being a beached whale myself), Finn’s video trilogy, seeing my friend Ali, not the Mystery Spot, Hugh’s guided driving tour of Santa Cruz, getting burgers. Ron’s spaghetti night.

Clara: making Ravens Revenge, having a dance party on the beach at night, and going to the Mystery Spot.

Farewell Auntie Carol

This is the first day in the world, or any world I know, without Auntie Carol. I wouldn’t think I could even write something about this except that Rory and Mom both posted something on Facebook yesterday with the news, and if they can say something, so can I. I think the hesitation is that it feels impossible to sum up something so monumental. How do you explain the life and importance of someone you love?

Auntie Carol is my godmother. Auntie Carol is Mom’s best friend since middle school. Auntie Carol is the Wallace mirror to my mom’s Wallace, the two tall girls in cat glasses and starched underwear, respectively. The two girls who went on to Vassar and Pomona, who went on to become a therapist and a journalist, and most importantly, the two who went on to become mothers.

Auntie Carol is such a presence. I love her hands, adorned with her wide gold wedding band and often a gold Irish ring and a pinkie ring on the other hand, and the way they moved so expressively and warmly. I held her hand in the hospital Friday evening and it warmed mine. Isn’t that the way with mothers? Even when you try to comfort them, they end up comforting you somehow.

In my mind, our mothers, Megan’s, Rory’s and Patrick’s and Robin’s, Hugh’s and mine, would be our ballasts forever because they always have been. Auntie Carol left me a message exactly a week before she died to wish me happy birthday. She sang to me, the way she has since I was a baby. The way she sang when Robin was on tricycle, Patrick was a blond baby, Hugh was in striped knee socks, Megan and I were sneaking out, and Rory was starting to shine in theater. Our mothers have always been there and always will, at least in my mind.

Some things I love and admire about Auntie Carol: She had great hair and her lipstick shade was always the right one. She was a fan of photos of her loved one and we were all plastered all over her walls, fridge and dresser tops. She had no compunction about going to bed an hour or three earlier than everyone else to read her books. She read all the time. She loved walks and we had good talks on walks, whether at Bethany, the Outer Banks, PLP (going to the library usually) or Deep Creek Lake. She loved beaches, per the previous sentence. She held no punches when it came to stating her opinion, but she was also gentle when she knew someone needed support. She kept things simple and she planned ahead; a pre-made lasagna was usually our first meal at PLP. She understood the power of conversation, phone calls, laughter and love. Even though she was no fan of computers, she persevered to use zoom. She was not religious but she liked the Evensong services by the main dock at PLP. She always got us beach treats. It’s the little things that matter, her actions always said.

She loved us. She understood our idiosyncrasies, and kept things real. She loved all of my family even after we changed shape. That was a true gift to me as a child caught in fluid worlds. Love is like water, it’s fluid too.

She also taught me an important message about managing life: Take one stressor at a time. Pick one to face and eliminate the rest. She helped me understand this during a difficult time in grad school, and I still frame my living this way. It is so helpful to give myself permission to let go the multiple worries to focus on one, which makes space to do that one well.

Her leaving is a shock that will take time to absorb and I suspect it will come in waves, just like her beautiful oceans. There will be periods of calm waters and then a memory, a realization, a wave that will crash and maybe tumble us. Uncle Sean, in a hug from Dad, said, “It was a good life,” and it was, but so much more of it was expected. KO, beloved mother, wife, friend, sister, daughter and godmother will be with us in the journey as we stay behind, coping a little better because of all she’s taught and given us.

I have to go, I need to call my mother and tell her that Megan just found a photo of the two of them as bride and bridesmaid in KO’s jewelry box. Love is treasure.